I Feel Terrible

I feel terrible. I feel so sad. I feel so worried and unhappy. I am constantly scared of binging, of losing control with food and spiraling back into crazy binging.

I feel so sad when I think of how much weight I have gained and how much muscle I have lost. I feel lost and hopeless about my life. I have to go back to work, but I dread it because I don't get along with many people.

I feel like a loser most of the time because my sisters both have kids and jobs, and here I am, not doing anything with my life.

Money is so tight, Ben will be so mad when he sees the bills this week. I don't have anything to look forward to. No vacation, nothing.

I just have another boring summer ahead. More depression and binging.